when I look at the stars I feel like myself

Three things about being a woman:

1. Never again will I make light of the regulation uniform for women. As a matter of fact, I'm going to talk to someone about making male regulation uniforms applicable for female members. These things are ridiculous.

2. My normal demeanor and behavior is apparently a lot worse as a woman than it is normally. If another person gives me that look, I swear...

3. I'm stressing out a lot easier like this and I don't want to say it's because of the hormonal changes, but I'm pretty sure that has something to do with it.


I really wish I hadn't been so ridiculous and thought that I shouldn't tell Jim what was going on. I don't even know why I decided this was a good idea. Lying to your Captain is never okay, no matter what you want to think! I just choked, and I thought that if I pretended I was someone else I wouldn't have to worry about it and then this could all be put behind me once it was over - if it gets over, because really, everyone says the viruses never act like this, so who knows if it'll ever stop?

I keep upsetting myself with this. I need to go drown myself take a shower and try to meditate or something, even if I've never been that great at meditation. This is so stupid!