Don't I? [Jack runs his hands over his face. No, he doesn't really mean it. But he is upset with Ianto at the moment, and that means that he's up for saying anything he so desires about it]
I know I'm not good at this. And he knows it too. [He pauses for a moment, before:] But I'm trying. The least he can do is acknowledge it...
I'm sure he knows that you're trying. He's just... kind of an idiot when it comes to these kinds of things. But that doesn't mean you should give up on him. [He moves down the workbench a little to check a plant sealed in a glass tube.] He's going to feel kind of like an ass for having kicked you out once he's got more sleep in him. But that's his thing. Neither of you are good with communication. [He chuckles a little,] I'm not even that great at it, myself. It's just going to take time and willingness, I guess. [Like he's one to talk, not talking about the occasional moods he gets.]
[Sulu can't really remember whether or not he'd told Ianto about how the amulet worked. He doesn't think about it enough to know for sure.] ...I don't know. I... haven't told him a lot about anything like that.
[Jack sighs, heavily] D'you think he minds? That the pair of us are...well. That we haven't told him much about anything that happened during that time?
I don't know what he minds, most of the time. He hasn't said anything, so I don't know. Probably not. I'm not even sure he wants to think about it, let alone talk about it. [He makes a face at the readouts,] God knows I don't.
[Jack's silent for a moment, before speaking up again]
...d'you think that we should, though? Even if we don't want to? [God knows, there are lots of topics that Jack hasn't wanted to discuss with Ianto, but he's had to out of necessity]
That's an understatement. [Still. Sulu knows that they really probably should at least try to approach talking about it, but...] How would we even propose talking about it? "By the way, Ianto, did you know I had to shoot Jack to fill up your amulet's tank of magic?" [He rolls his eyes, knowing that he's being flippant but not really caring. Jack saw what he was like - it's not as though he's very good with these things.] We probably should, but. Ianto needs to make some kind of first move, I guess.
[Jack snorts] Yeah, like that'd ever happen... He's probably the most retroactive person I know. For all we know, he could want to talk about it, and just be waiting for us to do so. Which is stupid, all things considered. But not really surprising.
[Jack nods, looking down at the ground. He remembers that time, remembers Sulu's refusal to let himself grieve, remembers his unfailing drive to get Ianto back after, no matter the cost] Yeah...
...I think he should know, though. I'm not sure that he realizes...y'know. How much of an effect he has on us. [He isn't quite sure how to express it to Ianto, but. He's starting to think if Ianto might listen, might pay more attention to them, might care for himself more, if... If he knew]
[Sulu sighs.] By all means, you tell him how much you love him, and I'll follow suit.
[And... not the right words there - well, they were, but that's the effect he has on Sulu and he doesn't doubt it's the same for Jack. Still, he's going to play that off as smoothly as he can.]
[A muscle twitches in Jack's jaw, and he falls silent for a moment. There are reasons why he hasn't told Ianto as much yet, even if they don't make sense. Everyone he loves dies, and maybe if he doesn't admit to the fact that he loves them, then they'll stand a chance. But Ianto died already, wouldn't that make him exempt? Like hell Jack wants to find out]
That wasn't what I meant. [Well. Not exactly. Although he supposes it is, when they get down to the heart of the matter]
I meant that he should know about what it was like for us, that time. When he was dead, and then when he was recovering. Because I'm not sure that he really knows...how much of an effect he has on us. But if you really want to put it like that, then. [Jack sighs, shifting awkwardly, aware that Sulu's looking at him now]
...yeah, I guess. We should. Let him know that too. [It could have been a surprise to him that Sulu loves Ianto too, but. It isn't. Not at all]
[He pauses, running a hand through his hair, taking a breath] You were the one who told me that I should try talking to him. I could repeat your sentiments and say that we were doing well enough without trying. I mean, seriously. Look where it got me. [He throws his hands up, motioning at himself and the situation he's found himself in]
Talking about being able to say, "Hey, I'm exhausted, let's call it a night," isn't the same as talking about this. But you're right. I'm being hypocritical. [Sulu has no problem realizing that when he needs to.] ...We'll just have to find the right time. Or, a time, I guess.
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Date: 2011-06-06 11:56 am (UTC)I know I'm not good at this. And he knows it too. [He pauses for a moment, before:] But I'm trying. The least he can do is acknowledge it...
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Date: 2011-06-06 12:45 pm (UTC)Like I said, [he says, wryly,] I'm not great at communication myself.
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Date: 2011-06-06 01:10 pm (UTC)...d'you think that we should, though? Even if we don't want to? [God knows, there are lots of topics that Jack hasn't wanted to discuss with Ianto, but he's had to out of necessity]
I mean. It was kind of a big thing...
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Date: 2011-06-06 10:47 pm (UTC)I don't even know if I could talk about it, honestly. You... saw how I was. Am, sometimes. [He's very careful to not look at Jack for that.]
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Date: 2011-06-06 11:45 pm (UTC)...I think he should know, though. I'm not sure that he realizes...y'know. How much of an effect he has on us. [He isn't quite sure how to express it to Ianto, but. He's starting to think if Ianto might listen, might pay more attention to them, might care for himself more, if... If he knew]
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Date: 2011-06-07 06:07 am (UTC)[And... not the right words there - well, they were, but that's the effect he has on Sulu and he doesn't doubt it's the same for Jack. Still, he's going to play that off as smoothly as he can.]
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Date: 2011-06-07 06:50 am (UTC)That wasn't what I meant. [Well. Not exactly. Although he supposes it is, when they get down to the heart of the matter]
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Date: 2011-06-07 07:26 am (UTC)...yeah, I guess. We should. Let him know that too. [It could have been a surprise to him that Sulu loves Ianto too, but. It isn't. Not at all]
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Date: 2011-06-07 08:37 am (UTC)[He pauses, running a hand through his hair, taking a breath] You were the one who told me that I should try talking to him. I could repeat your sentiments and say that we were doing well enough without trying. I mean, seriously. Look where it got me. [He throws his hands up, motioning at himself and the situation he's found himself in]
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